The alarm went off this morning at 5:00 AM. I didn't even hear it, which isn't unusual since I am not really "in charge" of the alarm, the snooze sets came and went and the next thing I hear is "I am too tired to get up and go to the gym". Much to my surprise, this was not just me talking to myself but my husband making his attempt to forego the 6:00 AM cardio workout that we do on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. You see I was actually tired, but really like the early morning cardio sessions because they get me going for the day. But for some reason my urge to just sleep for one more hour took over and my husband won the battle.
When I did get up at 7:00, I knew I really needed to get to the gym or I would immediately regret my decision. For some reason, my motivation level was at a big fat 0!! I mean there are some things going on this week to cause me some stress but I know I need to learn to also use exercise as a stress releaser!! I ate a breakfast sandwich (probably not the best one I could have eaten either), took my hubby to work and started off for the gym. I dilly dallied in the locker room getting changed, took forever getting water and finally made it up to the treadmill. Once I started, I just kept going and got the workout done and didn't even slack either!! I felt really good about accomplishing my workout when I was having such a slow morning and wasn't even motivated to go.
But the challenges didn't stop there, I was struggling with food all day long. At lunch I went to sushi with my mom, although I resisted the urge to get things that were not healthy, I really didn't want to. I wanted to eat something bad. Same with dinner, I had to run to the store to buy some ingredients for the Lentil Vegetable Soup I made, and I stood and stared at a take-n-bake pizza for what seemed like an eternity. In the end, I didn't give in to the urge or temptation but the craving and challenge were ever so present.
I wanted to blog about this today because up until now I have not had these urges and all of my blogs made it seem really easy for me to stay on this diet and exercise regimen. While I have had minimal challenges with craving bad food, this adventure has definitely not been easy and today is just an example of how hard it was for me to make the right decisions. A month ago it would have been really easy for me to just give in and not go to the gym or to that pizza, but I didn't...I stuck to my plan and the reward will be great. This just tells me that I am not only getting physically stronger but I am becoming a stronger woman each and every day and I am proud of that!! As for today, it is done, I am sitting in bed and tomorrow will be better. One day at a time is the only way to live and I constantly remind myself that I am worth everything and I can do whatever I put my mind to.
And last but not least....at the end of week #4....I currently weigh 282 pounds!! Yeah that is 19 pounds!! So no matter what challenges may be in my future, I will face them head on and keep on going and keep achieving all of my weight loss goals!!
See you soon!! Goodnight for now!!
T.
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